Meng's Diary

Wake Up

2012-01-16T03:24:00.000-08:00

I should begin to wake up!
No more unrealistice dream...
I believe that you wont change your attitude towards me,
And I insist that there is nothing wrong with my personality as you are the only one who complains about it,
I don't think i should tolerate to someone anger,
Especailly those who is not open enough to accept the comments..
No one is perfect, why can't you just accept it?

I know sometimes word may hurt person seriously...
But if the words are true...
Is venting anger on someone a good solution?
I think self-reflection will be a good solution...
If you feel that you are right, why you bother peoples' comment about you that is not true in your mind?
Is angry indirectly tells that you admit those comments are true in fact?

Or, you only sensitive to words from particular person?
I hope not so..
If not it implies that you hate me very much..
I really can't understand why i still care about your words and emotions...
Do a person who hurts me deserves my concern?
I guess no, but i don't know when i will stop irritated by your feelings.

Or only those who compromise to everything even weaknessess can have love which can last for long time?
Then i might reconsider whether i should close one eye when see other's weakness and follow her will blindly...what a sad case....

喘气

2011-12-16T10:49:00.000-08:00

最近日子真难过，
即使成功提起劲读资料，
最后还是会被复杂的内容泼冷水。
真的不知道自己在做什么~
算了，希望桥到船头真的会自然直！

申请国外大学也让我烦很久，
去好的？去普通的？
最后觉得自己也相太多，
依照现在的状况，因该去不到好学校了，
咳~真的很难乐观~

屋友也非常烦人，
不停地在电话里投诉，
说我和我哥女朋友的不是。
投诉是可以但要有道理，
整天疑神疑鬼认为我们要懂他的东西，
这也太疯了吧！

衣架离原位一点就大喊大叫，
她忘了她的衣架有轮子而且最近有大风~
没有吊衣服的时候难免会被大风移一点因为很轻啊，
重点是我看不出有被移的痕迹，
可能她有划线做记号吧~

我也不明白一个衣架的定位会对她那么重要。
好了，你要疯是可以的，
可是可以不要大大声在讲电话，
说我们没道德，读书也没用，
不会尊重人啊，我不是聋的~

若我们不会尊重你，
就会告诉你请不要吃了东西后，
把碗碟不洗放在一旁几天喂蚊子，
我们也没告诉你，
不要在客厅煮东西因为会熏到我们晾着的衣服，
厨房是可以用的~

我们都没告诉你，
不要把食物残渣留在水盆，
把垃圾放在水盆隔壁生虫，
不要听到有人在冲凉还不醒目的抢水用~

我们更没有告诉你，
把脚洗干净不然整间屋很臭。。。
你在半夜讲电话超大声，
尤其是在我考试时期，
我都没说你啊~
我们都不说因为尊重你，
怕会伤害你的自尊心，你竟然说我们没道德~
天理何在？

我们承认我们移过你的鞋子而且也有让你知道，
那是因为我们很明显的喷了很多香剂，
你还不愿意把那臭鞋子放在屋外，
甚至我们告诉你鞋子很臭你依然坚持放在屋内~
可是这是上次，现在鬼会离你的衣架噢？？？

既然你那么不满意，你就搬出去吧！
我接受不到一个`整天没冲凉都行的人，
一个不会检讨的人辱骂！！！
而且还要大大声说，
‘我就是要大声讲，干吗要介意那些无谓人听到’。。。

我学着不在乎，
可是又大声又刺耳的字眼，
我还不够大方去不被影响。。。
天，请想个办法让她走。。。
可怜她那么多次换来的是侮辱，
真的是‘闲’咯！

Haaa~发泄后，爽了~

盼望

2011-12-06T10:54:00.000-08:00

将近凌晨3点了，
可是刚看完一部短片，
觉得很有意思，
它给了我希望，
给了我推动力！

不要害怕与旧有的价值观起冲突，
因为你可能没发现，
身边的人其实已在学着吸收，
乐观的面对，
因为结果不一定是想象中的悲。

学着以勇敢地呈现自己，
即使没有表明接纳，
默默地妥协接受，
已是最大的收获=)

反省

2011-11-30T09:50:00.000-08:00

突然对未来有很多想法！
尽管有些梦想很不切实际，
但却有微微的推动力让我在精神不振的状态下
让我的课业有那么一丁点的进展！

我也觉得自己的惰性恶化了！！！
我竟然没有去考试因为懒惰读书，
天哪~谁救得了我。。。

唉~快点启动发奋图强状态，
不然一拖再拖回让我对课业，
望尘莫及而有心无力啊！

不能因为压力大而逃避，
要自爱，不蹉跎。

重来？

2011-11-27T04:23:00.000-08:00

无法与你看‘那些年’是遗憾，
看了这部电影后我却对过去有不切实际眷恋，
说真的，我竟然偶尔会想再次和你在一起，
即使我知道你不会是对的人。
那我眷恋的又是什么？
我不是不甘寂寞，因为原本的生活就是这样，
或许我的回忆依然停留在快乐相处时光吧~

更好笑的是，我们过去一起的时间不久，
可是我现在每一天遇到的事情都不经意的联想到你，
或许我的生活太单调了，
没有新事物把久的记忆给挤出去~

你说的最后一句话我到现在都无法理解，
你不适合两人的恋情，
我在想你适合多人的爱情？
还是你喜欢没有责任感的爱情，
所以谈恋爱和单身对你没太大的分别？

想起你的时候，都是最初刚认识你的时候，
因为总觉得当时满快乐的，
即使有时我还蛮笨，
再远都回去找你，再久也愿意等你~

现在的你因该恨快乐吧，
因为少了一份困扰缠着你，
你也因该开始忙于暧昧关系的生活吧，
也像你所说那么多人追求你~

心有不甘却无能为力，装作若无其事的我
何时才能能潇洒地完全搁下？
何时又会有美好的开始？

The End

2011-11-16T01:31:00.000-08:00

Love is like a train, i think that there will be another one soon after,
but i treat you as the only train i would take for the rest of my life,
I refuse to hang around the platform or left the train when i realise i might be in the wrong train,
but i never expected that the train i had chosen will not take me to the destination i want to reach.

I try to be strong,
I won't expect a rose without thorn, i will also not expect a love without hard feelings,
I thought we can definitely find a way to fix everything and give our love a chance,
but it seems like the effort i have made to compromise everything, it just can't work...
I always pretend to be happy even if i'm not because i'm afraid that my anger may cause me to lose you,
And i have to say thing aren't to how i feel...

Sometime or most of the time i felt i'm not loved or appreciated,
And believe that the cause would be the short courtship we had,
But now i realise even we had experience a longer time of courtship,
We would still have broken up in the end.

You always feel that we have different perceptions about love or attitude towards love,
I am willing to change and become less interactive with you so you get what you want which is freedom...
Isit I never change at all?Or i had change a lot but your mind set about me still the same as before?

My longing to you is like a poison, it slowly eroding my heart away...
I have so many things that i want to do with you, share with you but i just couldn't have a chance to do so,
You always complain about my words because it hurts you,
I feel sad of that,at the same time feel happy because it shows actually you do care about my words,
But who i can blame when your words or even the way you treat me is just bad?

Ok, i move a step forward when i feel we aren't going together like a couple...
I can't receive a birthday card that i remind you for few times anymore....
I can't take pictures with you anymore....
I can't watch movie with you anymore....
I can't hug you which is the only moment that i feel that you are mine...
Until now, I really don't know did you ever fall in love to me....

Anyway, i should accept all these,
Be cool, stay happy and focus on my works!!!

Bygone is bygone...

快乐吗？

2011-10-28T06:32:00.000-07:00

星期五了，没有特别的愉快，
因为太多的忙碌让生活变得无趣。
放学后，大雨迎接了赶着回家的同学，
每个人都在嘻嘻哈哈等着巴士回家，
可是我却在想待会儿塞车时可以做什么~

天空狂洒着雨水，
我只能撑着一把小伞跑到车去。
我享受进车后那顿时音量上的差距，
那瞬间提供了很好的私人思想空间，
车外的滂沱大雨好像转至静音模式，
只看到密密麻麻的雨线却听不见声音。

天色渐黑，而路上的一片车红灯营造了一人孤独归家的景象。
开了电话，播的第一首歌却是`错的人`，接着`重来`。
我努力的听着歌词，却时不时被思绪牵走。
我是否在错的时间遇上对的人？
我是否在错的时间遇上错的人？
我们是否有同样的想法？都想介入彼此的生活点滴？
需要多少次的重来，你才会体谅进而迁就？
需要多少次的重来，我才不会再执迷不悟？

我的态度错了吗？
我的要求太高了吗？
怎样才能够在不愿放弃中找到快乐？

谁能给我答案。。。

我能怨什么？

2011-10-08T08:50:00.000-07:00

我了解不同的人有不同的相处方式，
我也明白我无法跟别人一样，
可是我不能一次又一次的接受一句话，
‘我们处理的方式跟别人不一样啊。。。’

或许你会觉得我不会谅解，
可是你也是不是该学会了解一个道理，
接受差异是可以的，
可是该有个底线，
如果所谓的‘我们相处方式跟别人不一样’，
应许你完全与我不联络，
我觉得我可能还没准备好吧。。。

忙碌为理由，我觉得合理，
可是忙碌至不能穿封简讯告诉我你在忙碌，
我很难接受，
或许你害怕我会在你传简讯后缠着你吧。。。

你也以同样的口吻说了很多次，
‘我只能说的是我依然在乎你’
我从来都不敢质疑你的真诚，
纵使我很难感觉到那句话体现在哪里。。。

在我觉得我了解你的处境和谅解你却还有，
一些事跨越了我的容忍度时，
和你觉得我还没学会谅解你时，
我真的不懂该做什么。。。

Something that is true...

2011-10-06T06:35:00.000-07:00

First time i saw you,
I was scared to touch you...

First time i touched you,
I was scared to kiss you...

First time i kiss you,
I was scared to love you,

But now...
I was in love with you,
I'm scared to lose YOU...

胡思乱想

2011-09-28T08:29:00.000-07:00

庆幸有那眼神交会的暧昧，
两个孤单灵魂生活不再乏味。
模糊的感觉开始逐渐蔓延~

遇见你后，
很多时候我只会不知所措，
感觉你认同我时有些矛盾挣扎，
却害怕开口提问确定，
因为对爱情的渴望还没干枯。

即使能相依相偎在一起，
听了许多床上的誓言，
累积在海边的足迹，
慢慢建立自己的信心，
依然敌不过残忍的现实~

一张你抱着他的照片，
足以打破我想象的美好画面，
美梦将结束的感觉也突然涌上来，
难道准备好的幸福，
总有一天会消失，
那么的脆弱吗？

闷闷闷

2011-09-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

     你开学了，我必须适应你开学后的生活。坦白说，没有什么思念，或许昨天才见面吧。可是真的快要发疯了，因为整天无所事事。8月时，非常害怕快要开学了，因为不想面对读书压力，可是现在却很想开学因为不甘寂寞，想跟朋友出去玩也害怕没人陪太久会开始想念你。

    我知道你一定会很忙，也知道可能一个礼拜里头，会完全没沟通，可是不知道为何我依然会害怕面对，难道心理准备不够好？我知道学业和活动都对你很重要，所以我会让自己习惯自己不被优先考量的身份。希望开学认识新同学会让我放在你身上的心思减少，专注课业！

    重新调整你在我心中的地位可能会让我过得舒服点=）毕竟分散对你的注意力和心思让我不会思念成病确无药可医，哈哈。虽然说是容易，可是我真的能放得开，只有在闷的时候才想起你吗？我不能，可是我觉得你能，我也能谅解，因为你曾告诉我你得自力更生而学业是证明你能的唯一途径。也因此，我害怕我会打扰你，或甚至令你在学校时感到不耐烦而不敢与你联络即使当时我真的很想你。。。

     快开学啊！！！我要我的新生活！！！

聚

2011-09-12T07:41:00.000-07:00

     没见面的确有点辛苦，因为还没改掉乱猜测的习惯。昨天终于能见面，即使你摆臭脸，可是我觉得很开心因为至少我觉得原来你希望我早到，希望能早点看到我。我们依旧一见面就以生气的姿态相对，我始终搞不清楚为什么会这样，或许这一形成了我们见面的一个程序吧，哈哈～

     持续没说话很久，原来你等我说对不起，我觉得太好笑可是很窝心，因为我感觉到原来我是重要的。不知为何，看见你和别人聊天我已不会生气了，是因为我信任你，还是我已懒得理了，只要眼前的你还是我的，我看不见的就算了吧～希望这不是我爱你少了而是我学会看开了，哈哈...

     同样的，我们见面时依然很少话题，来来去去依旧是一些甜言蜜语，不知道是件好事还是坏事，有时想问你问题纯粹好奇却害怕你觉得我不信任你，你又对我身边的事没感兴趣，最后一起看戏或各自上网变成了我们‘互动’的方式。我才发现很久没见面，思念很强烈，见面时间少，并不会让我们把握时间做最多的交流，幸亏能看见你我已很满足了=）

    期待下次的相聚，希望有更多深情深入的对话和火花为感情加温！我的天哪，我又写恶心肉麻的话了～哈哈

两人的关系

2011-09-06T02:26:00.000-07:00

曾经。。。

原来我一直都误解了，
以为在热恋期会感受到热烈的情感，
最后原来只有一厢情愿的思念，
甚至怀疑你是否在乎过我，
即使自己觉得很辛苦，
可是告诉你又如何，
我们爱情观的分歧就知道告诉你也只有徒劳无功。

曾经。。。

有时真的很想放弃，
因为真的不知道自己是否在谈恋爱，
或是纯粹的与朋友联络，
离多聚少已不是问题了，
而是我们之间好像没有话题，
兴趣也有很大的差异，
更伤心的莫过于我很少感受过你所许下的承诺，
我更害怕的是你对朋友和我似乎没有分别，
对别人甚至比对我跟热情。

现在。。。

幸亏时间久了有些改进，
感受到模糊的被在乎和呵护，
即使前路看似艰辛，
希望我依然能坚守着对你的爱，
留住对你的宽容，
你也不要跨过我的极限，
我对你有十足的信心，
我也因此而不愿放手，
我们加油不让彼此失望吧！

未来。。。

我期待也害怕，
顺其自然吧，
我强求也没用，哈哈哈～

成长

2011-09-06T01:59:00.000-07:00

       有些事需要独自面对，因为它不能被揭发。这漫长的的抗战时期，我几乎喘不过气，因为我害怕失去我在乎的。想寻找可依靠的，至少在孤寂忧伤时可有对象宣泄，但依然不愿踏出一步，终于，终于我肯开口了，愿意掀开那不为人知的一幕，这需要勇气，或许这是孤军作战的恐惧感带来的力量。

       开口那一刹那，我似乎很洒脱，其实内心是多么的针扎。快乐的是没有争执，也过得更自在，难过的却是为别人增加了一份忧虑。

       希望愿意表露心声能证明我已成长了，希望多了一份忧虑的您可以不要操心，有了你们的支持，我会更坚强！

大难临头

2011-03-11T09:11:00.000-08:00

环境越来越恶劣，改善的效率不够高，大灾难已不罕见，
既使居住远离灾区很远的地方也逃不了恐惧感，
最担心的是家人和自己的生命，
确保生命不受威胁后，
下一个担心的是自己的家园或产物是否已被摧灭，
恐惧感的来源是莫过于人类能做的微不足道，
根本抵抗不了大自然的力量，
此时此刻是不是全球人都在为灾民担心呢？
或是有些人依然享受物质生活，
自己的生活圈与世外隔绝？
或许懂了灾情后替灾民担心是于事无补，
不如实际地响应环保因该会缓慢末日的到来，
因为生命可以很短暂，
不是因为你经历了生老病死，
而是天灾为你生命画下恐怖的句点，
我真的想太多了。。。

矛盾

2010-12-28T10:31:00.000-08:00

我想成功，
可否不付出努力？
我要成就，
可否容忍我的惰性？

是我懒惰，
还是我找不到动力？
我喜欢它不够深吗？
还是让我分心的事太多？

青春有限，
我是否投资对的它？
若不是，
那我付出的努力会不会只带来空虚？

算了，
或许我有太多借口，
变成阿Q,
不要在找借口，
奋斗吧！

至少奋斗的结果，
能满足肤浅的我所要的虚荣心。

Johor Baru Trip

2010-10-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

I went to johor last week for the debate competition, i think it will be my last debate competition, although my team lost,but we are still happpy with it and have some memorable moment at there^^

OMG~zhixiang and bernice tidur bersama-sama...

Pitfeng must be very angry haha

Crazy Jeffri haha

Havent ready yet~

A....what a nice picture hehe

shhhhh...

Zhixiang cute brother =)

19th Birthday

2010-10-13T05:47:00.000-07:00

Although busy in doing assignment,luckily i manage to have some fun for my birthday^^

Thanks to Jeffri for the BANANA cake,i don't need a ''BANANA'' as what u mean haha

Thanks to Zhixiang and Kangrui too (we are in HELP residence preparing for the debate friendly match)

After the friend;y match, i go to a steamboat restaurant at Sunway there, thanks to Tania and Joan haha

Zhi Song and LiChuan

Zhi song and Joan

(so happy that my newly met classmate celebrate my birthday)

Thanks to my lovely brother and his girlfriend, and my ex-housemate A Ru

Thanks to Changtat^^

After that, we went to Jalan Ipoh and had our supper^^(Changtat fetch us,terima kasih yea),eventhough there is nothing special in that day, i'm happy with everything on that day.Hopefully next year can back to Kuantan and celebrate my birthday with my High school friends.....

6am to 11.30pm

2010-09-23T09:25:00.000-07:00

Today,i have my 2nd legal skill lesson. My class was having a debate on the issue about the influx of immigrant. At first, i thought i will be enjoying the class but what had happened was the debate are like arguing with each other and make me tense up.

I was wandering why people can't just be patient and make their argument after others completed their statement? Is that embarrassing when people counter our argument?And we have to defense what we have said immediately? No. There is always a room for discussion.

This let me think back the "younger me" in few years time ago. I'm narrow minded and feel difficult when people have different point of view with me and i tend to respond them in a rude way. Luckily, i have changed and try to remind myself that what i have do or say is not always true,always ready for challenges from other people with no hard feeling,that's the way that make my life easier and happier^^

After the class, my new friend Li chuan fetch me Joan and Tanya to a Bak Kut Teh restaurant in kelana jaya. It is awesome!!thx so much and we have a great time too after the lunch.We watch The Legendof Fist with Uncle Troy. Although the story line was predicted but the fighting scene make me excited!!^^

There is a chinese debate discussion after the movie session because the competition in johor is coming soon.The bad thing is i watch another movie called The Legend of Guardian after the discussion. Is is ad to not study but watch movie,hopefully tomorrow i can finish some chapters for my study =)

无缘

2010-09-22T08:01:00.000-07:00

曾经与你邂逅却没有勇气持续彼此的关系，
或许年少懵懂，不敢尝试这场游戏，
因为怀疑自己到底是真诚的玩家，
还是陶醉在欺骗别人时欢乐自己。

虽然渴望爱情的甜蜜，不甘一个人孤寂，
希望找个伴能聊天相聚，
但还是害怕会被别人抛弃，
或自己其实只贪恋短暂的新鲜气息，
不是持久的关系。

这可能是一个原因，
一个能解答为何我一直都是一个人没有伴的原因，
或好听些，
我能我行我素，没有包袱~
可是最终在一个人独处时，
还是会不禁自怜自己~

Relax...relax...relax

2010-06-21T09:37:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my midterm exam Marketing paper,i have finished study all the notes but still feel insecure!why?To overcome this uncomfortable feeling, i went to Old Town for supper with my brother and watch tv3 till 12am. This is the first time that I'm relaxing before exam, wish i can remember all the things that i have studied and can answer all the question tomorrow...Buddha bless~

I LOVE 李圣杰

2010-06-20T00:06:00.000-07:00

Luckily i manage to come back from Port Dickson and see him.

Super super happy that i can attend the small singing concert of Sam Lee. Although it is hot due to the concert was held outside the Time Square, i really enjoy myself. He really good in singing and impressed me a lot because of not lowering the key although singing on live. He sang few songs in his new album and 1 song in his old album. I stand so far away from the stage but luckily still can see his face clearly!!!hahahaha~

At the end of the concert, all of his fans lining up in a long queue. During my turn, i request him to write TSM on the album but his evil assistant rejected my request!!! I feel so sad and forget to shake hand with him!!!!Anyway, i was satisfied because can see him in such a short distance between he and me^^

What a bad day!

2010-04-28T06:02:00.000-07:00

Final exam is coming soon, so my friends call me to join their study group in Starbucks. Actually i decided to walk to Starbucks at first, but the weather is too hot for me! so i drive to there. Something bad happen, my car's aircond is not working!!!! i sweat like hell in the car. The car is so stuffy without aircond. Try to imagine the water flowing in waterfalls. That's happen on my body, the sweat keep coming out from my skin pore! It is disgusting because my whole cloth is wet! And i have to waste RM8 for the parking fee!haiz~

(this happened in one day of last few weeks)

Unlucky experience

2010-04-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

It have been long time that i never post any blog.Finally, i got the mood to sit down and think what had happened last few weeks. The first thing that i can still remember is psychology group assignments!!!i was so angry because have sucks group member. Actually it is 4 peoples in 1 group,but one of my group's member insist that he prefer 3,so what can i do?just say yes. Let's call the male group member L and female group member W.You know how they assign the work to me?There are 4 parts,and both of them only responsible for 1part and i have to finish the rest 2 parts! it is unfair for me!anyway, i just take it~

L told me that we have to finish as early as we can, so there is more time for us to combine all things and rehearse presentation. The presentation is about the content in our assignment which is ''Eating Disorder". However, what had happened is Friday is dateline, and they haven't finish their part until Thursday midnight! They can't finish their work make me so worry and keep sending their part to me, and call me check and edit for them. Do you think they are crazy? i better do it all myself since i have to correct almost all the content that they sent to me. The worst thing is that i have critical thinking quiz on Friday, i have to prepare for it too. I almost gone crazy that time! i give up to wait all they finish their work and edit for them because it already 2.30am and they haven't finish their work!

L is better because i still can feel he feel sorry but W like thinking she do nothing wrong. She simply type some words and send to me without any citation for her work(commit plagiarism). I really can understand why she so irresponsible and have time to join Beauty Competition some more!Haiz~wish i will not same group with irresponsible next time.Buddha bless~

Debate Competition

2010-01-25T00:49:00.000-08:00

It was a long time i didn't post any blog,this is because i join HELP college debate team and it consume a lot of time.We took part in National University Chinese Debate Competition but we have to go through the qualification round 1st simply because our college lost in the 1st round of last year competition.

I met many friends in HELP debate clubs,all of them elder than me.They are quite nice^^We try to practice as much as we can and organised some friendly match to improve our skill.

we take dinner together before going to UNI TENAGA for friendly match^^

we take photo with UNITEN debate team member after the friendly match

we also having a friendly match with ''XUN REN'' high school

finally,we manage to won in the qualification round!!!happy~this is the 1st time HELP can be the one of the 16 finalist.

what a difficult life...

2010-01-06T06:24:00.003-08:00

My life now is really terrible,most of my class didn't make me happy as previous semester.I choose principles of economic and human communication as my elective hoping these subjects can help me in future.Anyway,my economics teacher looks interesting in first time we meet but actually he is quite boring in teaching.Can i survive for 14weeks in boring class?Critical thinking lecturer not that good too,she not prepare well before teaching us and my classmate make me dislike the class,all is stranger to me!haiz

Not only in college,my life at home is terrible too.I can't understand why all my housemates can access Internet but i CANT!my laptop can access internet at everywhere except my house.i can't access internet means i can't do anything,i can't change my groups for every subjects although i hate my class without access internet to visit my college website

I left my keys inside my room and the room is locked.Can you imagine how pity it is when you realise you left the key inside the room just right after you lock and close the door?i have to call a technician to open the door for me and it cost rm25!!!i try to save money so hard and just because of my carelessness,i have to waste money.haiz~

At noon,my mum called me not to spend to much because she saw the debit card bill.I know i spend a lot during shopping but i really try to save money now.The problem is,i my dad cut down my pocket money for this month but actually i suppose to get more money for this month due to the costly text book i have to buy!haiz~

I really really really regret that i choose to study at HELP college!!!It is well-known but why it hire bad qualities lecturers?i mean some!And college life really different as what i thought,why i keep meeting weird classmate?and i don't like the atmosphere in all class for 2nd semester!!!!Is that my own problem?

Miss my parents very much!

香港面粥家餐馆

2010-01-03T05:42:00.000-08:00

Today my dad,mum and sister come to kl to fetch my brother back to kuantan.Before they back kuantan,we take our lunch at 香港面粥家餐馆 in Midvelley.It really tasty and that's the reason why they are so many people inside the restaurant.The price of dishes there a bit high but the foods worth it.

蛋挞

猪猪小笼包

芥菜饺

烧卖

瑶柱翠苗饺

双拼干捞云吞面之烧肉叉烧

干捞云吞面之牛肉叉烧

黑胡椒乌冬面

清汤水饺

咸鱼鸡粒炒饭

琵琶烧鹅

my dad was enjoying the QQ ''wan tan mee'' and my sister was happy with the cute ''xiu long bao''

that's me,can you feel that i'm not very happy?this is because i'm thinking how lonely and boring my life would be after my parents back to kuantan =(

Anyway,i enjoy the meal very much because there been long time my parents and i never take lunch together.

Miss my parents so much!

No more shopping,Please!

2010-01-03T02:15:00.000-08:00

Last day,i shopping at Midvelley to get some goods before the end year sales end.There are some incidents which make me feel great shame.When i want to pay in TopShop,the cashier say that my debit card is rejected by the machine,WHAT!!!did u know there are so many people around me waiting their turn to pay,and i have no enough cash or other card!i am thinking what in other shoppers mind,i'm the people who stealing others card?i'm the people who use up all the money in card or exceed the limit?luckily my friend is there and lend me some cash...this situation happen again when i want to pay in Timberland!haiz..what an unlucky day~

I thought my card can use in every shop but it only work in Zara and Philosophy.This worry me and to avoid the shameful incident happen again,i have to withdraw money at ATM before buying any things.Belows are the goods i bought^^

Timberland shoes,it is the most expensive item i bought,cost me rm439~i want to buy cheaper shoes but cheaper shoes don't have my size,sad...

tags on the shirts and shorts i bought

All these shirts i bought from Zara,some cost rm69.90,some cost rm89.90,and the yellow only rm39.90

Jeans from TopShop,i like this colour very much!it's about rm243

shorts from Philosophy,rm219.30

Mum and Dad,sorry because of wasting your money.I promise not to spend too much and always frugal of my money from now onwards!!!

Christmas Eve

2009-12-31T20:16:00.000-08:00

For Christmas's eve,my old friends decided to make a party or gathering to celebrate Christmas eve.That's a good idea and we make it work.At that day morning, we meet together beside the wet market.After counting the money we brought,we list down all the materials and ingredients needed and start buying those thing.Lets the picture tell you what we go through the whole day!

why there laugh so loud???we only have rm200 for 20 peoples portion.

when we find difficult in choosing ingredients,ting ting will call her mum for help.

we are serious in buying foods in order to save money for more other foods.

after finish buying the things,we go to yee lin grandma house to prepare the foods.

in the process of preparing food,someone injured,who is the people bleeding a lot?so stupid haha

our professional artist start drawing and decorating the house.

there are two assistants,chee han and yong kang.

Lets Party!!!

All of us start eating,did you find out that all of us wearing red shirts?

wuhu~we are very happy!

long time didn't see them laugh and smile already~

all these girls are genius,there are hardworking and have a brilliant brain!

why the bird still sad when a handsome prince going to kiss it?haha

it doesn't look like a delicious steamboat,but it is meaningful to us,because we prepare it together,and that the precious moment i enjoy very much.

my f5 gang composed of 10 crazy boys and girls.Agree?

we like to take pictures.....

look at the third person,that's our pui yee...

yummy yummy,orange prawn~^^

All of us bring presents for ''present exchange session''

eat..eat..eat

eat..eat..eat..

what!!!kai lee kiss yong kang when we are eating~oh my god

wow~this couple sweet like honey...

sometime kai lee do look ugly~haha

tanah putih secondary school ex excellent students^^

after the party,we clean up the place.

Hope next year,we can organise party again during Christmas's eve.

Lee Ling Birthday

2009-12-19T00:49:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night i celebrate Lee Ling birthday with some friends including Li Yun,Ting Ting,Yee Lin,Sheng Yang,Wai Sin,Yong Kang,Jin Hou and Jing Chao.The celebration suppose start at 9pm but i late because having dinner with my parents.I am responsible in fetching Ting Ting,Li Yun and Kai lee to Just Relax.We didn't buy any present,hope Lee Ling will forgive us hahaha...That night have a heavy rain which make me difficult to find a parking because everywhere is wet and we can't get down from car.Finally,i manage to find a car park,right opposite Just Relax.

We reach there at 9.15pm,and think all my friends already been there.However,there are only 2friends waiting us at up stair and the ''protagonist'' haven't come yet,We hate that place because there are people smoking and quite hot.So,next time please don't gather at Just Relax!!!Below are the pictures we take during the celebration.

Ting Ting and Kai Lee is promoting Heineken~

Wai Sin,Yong Kang and me

Jin Hou back from Singapore,Sheng Yang and me~

Yee Lin,Pui Yee and me~

Li Yun,me and 2 beer promoters^^

Pui Yee,me,Lee Ling and Jin Chao~

All people take photo together,thanks to the camera woman(waitress there)~

What did she wish???Why smile?

''Inventory''

2009-12-16T04:24:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday my sister came to KL and we shopped together.We went to Midvelley and One Utama shopping complex.There are many shirts and pants for you to choose and the price is not that expensive(only for girl),so if you are a man and want to shop,remember to bring more money!!!This is my humble remind : )

I like the pant because of its excellent design,maybe you can't see it because my sister help me to take this picture from far.It cost about hundred and ten after 20% discount,i bought it from a shop at Garden.

I bought this shirt at Kitchen,my sister called me not to buy it due to its simple design.It cost Rm89.90.Is that considered expensive?I never buy this kind of shirt before.

This trousers i bought at Kitchen too,it only cost RM50...very very cheap right?^^

This short i bought from Cutton On,same price with the trouser above.It's good texture make you feel comfortable when wearing it.

I not really like this shoes but i shop around every shoes shop,and yet can't find a shoe with my big leg size.So,i just bought it because this shoe have size 13.Please don't get shock when knowing my foot size^^

I hope i manage to shop again before the commence of my 2nd semester.Anyone want to accompany me to shop,please tell me,i will be very happy...hahahaha....

MAPCU volley ball competition

2009-12-11T18:37:00.000-08:00

This is my first time represent college to participate MAPCU volleyball match.MAPCU competition only open for private university and college.I am excited because long time for me didn't join volleyball competition.At the morning,we assemble at college waiting college shutter bus to fetch us to the venue.However,the bus driver didn't come to school so we have to go by ourself.Luckily,we have friends with cars.We reach University Malaya and saw quite a number of players and i start nervous.

Just right after 10minutes we reach there,our match start.Unfortunately,i'm the reserve for the 1st match.I am so sad for that because thinking am i that poor in playing volleyball?When i see my team losing one mark by one mark and i can't do anything to help them,it makes me suffer.I know my coach know i better than some main player,he was non the less keep using the main player.Anyway,match after this match and onwards,i take part all the match hehehe.....and finally i find out the reason why i cant play in the first match;it is because i seldom go for practicing.Ok,is fine for me,i accept it.It sounds fair to other who make a lot of effort in training.

i'm the long hand long leg guy receiving a the ball.

actually i can jump quite high..hehe

wow,thanks for the people who take this picture,make me look so cool~

after we won in bronze match,we go and support our college girl team which fighting for champion. i'm the guy using towel cover his head with no.3 jersey.

fast,fast,fast,i want get my medal!!!

my team players and me.(i'm the youngest^^)

we take photo with our coach.

Although we only got 3rd place,we enjoy and happy all the way.Not forget to congrats girl teams too because they got champion.

Trifle

2009-12-09T07:11:00.001-08:00

Now, i only left study skills and computering principles papers.I hope it will be ok for me because i spend most of my time for fun and relaxation.Why i'm that lazy?Or i'm just confident of myself and not worry about the exam?I go for movie with friends and brother without realising the time i have for revision is limited.However i manage to glance through the lecture notes,hoping that i can answer all the questions^^.God bless~

Yea,besides watching movie i also ''yam cha'' with my friends.One of my friends confuse with love problems.It is quite interesting.It's about she into someone but not dare to give ''signal''.We chat for long time and try to persuade her to express her love to the guy ''tactically''.Nevertheless,she think too much or even worst she said girl take initiative in love is embarrassing and lower own status.Did you have the same view with her???

For me,i don't think so because who take the ''first step'' in love not that important.The main thing we should concern is does the first step work?or can i move on to another step?hopefully,you will understand what i mean,haha.

Suddenly,some things come to my mind.I was like watching a movie playing.It is about what happened to my friend in the past.

During the Valentine day(conversation between a boy and a girl who love each other but didn't tell each other about their feelings)

girl: wei,today is Valentine day,what will you like to say to me?(with a smiley face)
boy: erm...happy valentine day.
girl: other than that?
boy: 情人节快乐(happy valentine day in cantonese)
girl: that's all?
boy: Yup.
girl:but i have something more to say to you.
boy:ok,what is that?
girl: eee...e...i love you
boy:what!!!!!(i shout in heart and stunt for a moment)
girl: so how?i want....(i stop her)
boy: left it for me,i will tell you later.(i was damn nervous at that time,i'm in the dream!)
girl: ok,so see you later.
boy:ok.

finally the boy agree to be with her.The boy was passive so the girl take initiative.In this situation,no one think the girl lower her status or bring down her reputation.For me,she is brave to get what she want to avoid regret in future~

Wish my friend will be brave to tell the guy what she feel; although can't be couple, you still can be his friend,and you won't regret or angry when he couple with a girl that you think is not as good as you...haha

English Demonstration

2009-12-06T07:23:00.000-08:00

As what i said before,my demonstration is about soy beans side dish,and finally i did the demonstration already.I was damn nervous before my demonstration because i still can't make a delicious Kongjang but a over sweet and hard soy beans.Haiz...is that my fault??i try twice in cooking it but still fail to do so!I think maybe is Malaysia soy beans are bad quality.If not,why i soaked it in water for 2days,it still hard like steel??These make me worry so much because might affect my score.

Another worry is i can't comb the hair as what lecturer want.This sounds funny right?How come lecturer will request student to change their hairstyle?hahaha It happened to me no doubt.She want me to comb a ''monkey buttock'' hair but i can't due to my thick and heavy fringe.

I fail to make Kongjang.i fail to change my hairstyle,and this is my score...77/100..haiz~i thought i will get higher marks than that and my friends think in the same way as me too.And my physical appearance only got 3 out of 5;most people got 5.Haiz~

I thought my demonstration was not bad(am i too confident of myself?haha) although the food came out was bad.For me,demonstration important than the food,food is not the main focus.Or i can't deliver my speech fluently and clearly?Anyway,this is the result,i can't change my score eventhough i not satisfied with it!

I'm wearing the formal shirt.This is my look before waxing my hair,i look like a good boy right?hehe

After wax my hair,it look nothing different,but actually i waxing my hair for 1 hour you know?i purposely go buy a wax just want to fulfil teacher ''special'' request.At 1st,i try to comb ''monkey buttock'' hair but i can't make it,so i try to make some different by separating my fringe into half^^can you see it???the small triangle...

Actually i want to upload my demonstration record to my blog but don't know why after i try few times,i can't post it...maybe the God don't want me to show you guys my bad demonstration hahaha~.Hopefully, i will have improvement in future...

I'm not a good chef

2009-11-25T06:47:00.000-08:00

Next Wednesday is my English demonstration,and i decide to demonstrate on how to make a Kongjang.It is a Korean side dish made by soy beans,taste sweet and sticky.It doesn't require a good cooking skill because its cooking steps are easy and simple.I am anticipate the day i prepare the food.Let me tell you the steps first:

Rinse 1 cup of soy beans in running water and put it in a skillet.
Soak it in 2 cups of water for 8hours.
Boil it for 10 minutes.
Add 1/2 cup of soy sauce,1/2 cup of sugar,2clove minced garlic,1 tea spoon of oil.
Boil it on stove over medium high heat for 30minutes.
Add sesame seeds and cool it down.
Keep it in refrigerator.

It looks easy but.......i fail to do so,haiz~

i soak it in water about 9 hours,i place the soy beans in skillet before i go to school at 10.45 and start cook at 8.20 minutes.But it is still very hard!Why? Malaysia soy beans harder than Korea soy beans very very very much???

After add all the ingredients i mentioned just now,i boil it for very long time,more than time i stated just now because the juice doesn't evaporate,haiz~about 1 hour and more i wait the juice to evaporate and turn sticky.

Ladies and gentlemen.....finally i finish cooking Kongjang!wuhu it look tasty right?shiny and gold in colour,yummy yummy~

You see,I'm satisfy with my ''product'' and smile happily~ (don't laugh at my ugly wearing,thanks)

Actually not!!! It is damn sweet and hard.I'm worry about i will getting diabetes soon,and the beans hard like a rock!!!I'm not boasting,it is true.

Haiz,what i can do now is pour the soy beans carefully into the plastic bag.

So sad,i spend so much time on it,and yet it is not tasty as what i imagine.Plastic bag is my first ''Product'' tomb...i will cry to you because you waste my time and money...aaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

In conclusion,the recipe maybe is wrong and the beans in Malaysia are different in Korean.Decrease the amount of sugar because is too sweet.Soak the beans for longer time until it soft.Anyone who try to make this side dish and cook it successfully,please inform me yea!haha

Anyway,i will try next time so i can bring it to college and share with my friends and prove that what i demonstrate to them during presentation is true and reliable.Kongjang is tasty and not sweet like eating sugar or hard like stone~

暗恋>>>示爱

2009-11-18T21:41:00.000-08:00

爱情是不是一定要涉及两个人呢？如果是的话，那么单恋或暗里暗恋归类为什么？它们不算是爱情的其中一种，那它们是什么？单恋或暗恋应该是伤害的一种吧！如果一味爱着一个不爱你，不可能爱你的人，到最后得来的是不是辛苦两个字？这句话也许很狠，但它应该没错吧！刚开始爱一个人的时候，总会幻想对方也会爱着自己，希望无时无刻想见到对方，他或她说的任何一句话都非常窝心，被看一眼都觉得对方无时无刻都在注意自己,即使是擦肩而过也心满意足。自己不敢表达爱意，默默地爱着对方却不觉得累，可是这种日子维持不久，直到有一天，自己终于发现自己已累了！才知道，终日活在盼望和对方成为一对恋人的日子是很疲倦的，因为遥遥无期，也明白自己幻想一些不可能实现的情景只会换来短暂的甜蜜和喜悦，最后得来的也只有无尽的孤寂......有希望是对的，因为它能暂时安抚自己的空虚，它能带来一些满足，满足自己一时的渴望，可是最重要的还是实际行动，勇敢表达自己，惟有这样我们才能知道自己的希望是否就是可以实现的未来或是徒劳无功一场空......好吧，在暗恋或单恋的朋友加油吧！大家不要傻傻的在等待对方发现自己对对方的爱慕之意了，勇敢地踏出第一步吧^^

Volleyball match

2009-11-14T05:57:00.000-08:00

Yeah!we got 2nd prize~wuhu

That's me

We have the same fringe style.

Can you figure out where i am?

1st trophy from HELP,although is ugly,it is memorable.

Today i went to Brickfield sport centre to participate the volley ball close tournament held by HELP psycology faculty.Only four team took part the game.The most funny thing is,we don't have the right to choose our team members but draw lots to determine which people will be your team members.The actual time for us to start the game was 9a.m,so we have to reach the court at 8.55a.m. The tournament commitee call us to reach school earlier to wait the bus,the best is all people can gather at school at 8.30.However, the bus came late at 9.30..So,can you imagine a whoever wait the bus to fetch him or her for 1hour?Unluckily,we are the people!

I'm so sad when i reached the place because that is a outdoor court,and we are going to expose to the cruel sunlight.I dont know why HELP is a private university college,should be rich enough to affort the rental of an indoor court,yet they din't sponsor anything and we forced to play volley ball under the super hot sunlight.Volley ball match is not only the game they held but also net ball.All the teams must be made up from at least 3 girls,it sounds funny right?How come boy play net ball?And have you ever heard about mix volley?I only know there are mix in badminton.

My group was not that good because only have 7 members and one of my team members absent because went to the Genting Highland.The rest of my group member also poor in digging or covering.Anyway,we already try our best although our adversary is much much better than us.One shameful thing was happenend to me;i had a muscle cramp for both my leg muscles during the match going on!All people forced to stop the game for a while and all of them look at me with a smiling face.Are they laughing at me?Is muscle cramp funny to them?Perhaps,i din't do exercise for long time and didn't warm up properly.

At last,out of expectation,my team got the 2nd prize!!!I thought we will get 3rd place,because we thought that we only can win the team from law faculty because they join the game just for fun and never learn to play volleyball before.Anyway,i am happy with it because it was my 1st prize from HELP^^but there are a upsetting thing which is i become darker!!!Like a Malay boy now...and my right hand has a wound,but i dont know what is the cause!Sad,0ne more scar on my hand!

Shit! Waste money again

2009-11-13T07:23:00.000-08:00

Yesterday,Nicole, my classmate who from Sarawak, and me went to Midvelley to buy something.We went there after finite maths class.After waiting the T634 bus in front Watson about 30 minutes, the but reached eventually. I finally understand why people hate public transport so much.This is because they delay a lot and didn't follow the time table they set before.She look for dress for her english presentation and i went there for buying my sport shoes because i have volley competition soon and a umbrella because my old one spoiled already.

She is 19 years old and available,any people interested can inform me haha!

We take picture because too boring and the bus only have both of us and the driver.

we have a sweet smile right?

Did you see the button?It is awsome,when you press it,the umbrella will open automatically,and if you press again, it will close by its own.

Haiz,this is my 4rd Espirit umbrella.My first espirit umbrella was too small,so i sell it to my teacher.The 2nd one i dont know where it lost(just use for 2 or 3months).3rd umbrella just spoiled because i keep open and close it causing the spring inside gone(i just use it 2months).Actually i dont want buy Espirit anymore,i bought a rm6 umbrella from Guardian but it spoiled another day after i bought it.what the hell!!!

this is my sport shoes,it is very very very expensive for me,it cost rm250 something.I try to find a cheaper one, but this is the cheapest one in the shop.Haiz~sorry mum and dad...

I felt guithy after bought the shoes because i have one before.And i also dont know why it will lost!haiz~

Ok, from now, i have to cut down my budget, try to spend less than rm20 a day. Hope it is possible for me, because food here really costly,if cut down budget,maybe i will suffer from starvation~

I can't accept the animadversion

2009-11-09T22:19:00.000-08:00

Today in English class,we discuss about unity of country,every group need to present their opinions about unity in our own country.Our discussion focus on the way to achieve greater unity of country.

During my turn to explain the points,my lecturer keep challenging my points.My group members feel that the lecturer is trying to ''attack'' me because teacher didn't ask as much question in previous group presentation as me.I explained about education.At first,i said we believe only through education,we can change people mind or instill patriotism in the younger generation.Then,i said all schools are encouraged to promote culture exchange so we can learn more about other races,for example go to other country which can widen our horizon,at the same time teach us how to accept races other then us and become open minded or...then she said why must go other country,then i replied her that I'm just giving an example,no doubt culture exchange between local school also can be practised.At this time,she asking me why don't just have a single stream school instead of vernacular school.I say vernacular school is essential in teaching students about their own race culture,custom and religion.If we establish single stream school,we wont have the enough time in implement all the information about religion,culture,custom and others into syllabus for three main races in our country.Consequently,we can't educate them that much resulting all the traditions will fail to be handed from past generations and lose forever.Finally,she nod. She seemed content with the answer.

I thought it was end but actually not.Then she went back to the first point.She said she know by culture exchange,understanding about other races will be improved but does it help?All people know other races culture,but why unity in our country is not firm?I said we know,but we didn't comprehend thoroughly,we just know part of it or not even one part,we haven't figure out the wonderful elements embedded in other culture,so we didn't appreciate it and this is the problem.she smiled and said nothing.

After we finish our presentation,she praised us and said we did quite well.But.........something hurt me was happened,she said I'm classical Malaysia student who undergo spoon feeding education system,i didn't stop and think deeply what she ask and I'm talking things which is out of picture.Even though i answered her, she said she forgot that i am a debater so i can talk a lot but all things without related to what she asked.Oh my god!I was very very very sad because it was a humiliation to me~i thought i answer all her question exactly and think critically.Maybe i have a limited vocabulary and it hinder me from expressing myself well causing her can't get what i mean.Haiz!or i am too arrogant and doesn't realise that I'm just a ordinary student who don't have critical thinking but just know how to crap a lot...

看得更多，快乐更大

2009-11-07T20:04:00.000-08:00

记得某天晚上，朋友都纷纷传简讯给我，叫我赶快到家外看看天空，因为月亮被一个漂亮的大光圈围绕着，非常壮观！好奇的我便跑到家外看一看，咳~心想自己又中骗了，因为我只看到光环，那是月亮自身发出的光，并没有什么漂亮的大光圈，朋友真无聊。心情有点失落，过一阵子，又有朋友传简讯叫我到家外看天空，因为有个像彩虹的光圈围绕着月亮。我的天啊，这超夸张的，像彩虹的光圈！！！我打死都不信，不想再中计了。还自以为聪明地回了一封简讯说，别骗我了，我刚刚看了都没有，我不‘丐’的 le。最后，妈妈又叫我姐和我到外面看一看，说今天月亮格外美丽迷人，咳~算了吧，既然大家意志坚定，这次我一定要看个清楚，到底是大家不约而同要骗我，还是我瞎了！

看了一看，我还是没看到什么，姐姐突然震撼的说，哇！很美很美噢！我的心在呐喊了，我的天啊，我什么都没看到，很不爽！姐姐就告诉我，看远离月亮较远的地方，看一看，真的有道漂亮的光围绕着月亮。自己不知道为何，心中有股莫名其妙的愧疚感！

原来自己看东西只看其中一小点，只相信自己所看到的，别人所说的都不信，又不懂自己看的不够多，忽略了更多美好的东西，甚至误会朋友，认为他们都在捉弄我。我也沉淀了一会儿，回想自己在处理每件事时，是否和刚刚一样，看事情只看一部分，遗漏了很多美好的事物，很多值得回忆和珍惜的东西，分分钟还造成误解。我还蛮自责的，因为知道自己原来是如此的微观，处事那么的不全面。

当看到天黑时，我就会觉得很扫兴，因为不能跟朋友在遛久一点，往往不明白，原来只有天黑时，我们才能欣赏星星闪亮的美。同样的，做每件事情前，都因该仔细判断每个细节，不能只看表面，要看得深入透彻，要宏观，也不因该一味盲目的相信自己说看到的。打个比方说，一个人很生气另一个人，想抓把泥，抛向他，看到别人肮脏自己便会快乐些，可是他不知道他在伤害别人前，自己已是第一个受害者，他还没弄脏自己讨厌的人前，自己已先弄脏自己的手了。

不但如此，我们更不应该先入为主。刚才我收到第二封信息时，就认定他在骗我，最终得来的是差点错过美景，错怪好人。或许我只是个普通人，两三个人根本无法让我醒觉，让我晓得自己想太多了，认为别人都想骗我，要等到更多人提醒我，才发现自己心胸狭窄，把好意当成恶意。我相信因该不知我吧，很多时候误会争执的发生就是这样，自己把别人的好意当成恶意，简单看成复杂。

最后，对不起被我误会的朋友，谢谢你们把美好的事物都与我分享，我也学会了，要往好的方面想，别人是在对你好，不要不知好歹地误会人家，看事情要看得跟多，看得更广，更不要以小人之心度君子之腹。

Venting anger @.@

2009-11-06T02:09:00.000-08:00

Just finish washing my cloths.It is time consuming and difficult to me.When i want hang my clothes for drying,i only find out that there have no enough clotheslines,and only left one for me.Actually it is fine,but just because my monster housemate cloths are still there,it makes me angry.Her clothes are damn smelly and my clothes are so close to hers,and this make worry about my clothes will have foul smell!

the jean, red shirt and so on are her clothes,you can smell the odour from her clothes and it fills anywhere.Can you the imagine everytime you enter the house and you will smell it?It's terrible.

I have to squeeze all my shirts and shorts on a clothesline.And there are one black short and one shirt at right side there and near to my short with blue side.God,please keep my short away from the odour.

I push her clothes a bit to the left so it will far a bit from my clothes.I did it although i know it is useless in preventing the odour ''attacking'' my clothes's pleasant smell^^

I really hate this housemate,she is dirty and doesn't behave like a girl. I can't stand everything she do.She didn't flush the toilet after using it,other housemates and me paste quite a lot of small papers on the toilet wall and hope she will correct her bad habit,yet she still continue this shameful conduct.What i can't deny is that i have prejudice against her.This is because before i move to this poor condition house,i already heard something bad about her.She drank my friend milk without asking for permission and finished my friend snacks and pretending nothing happen.Other than that,she cooked the hot dogs using the jug kettle(normally we only use it for boiling water),it was disgusting!Fancy being her roommate!I believe you can't tolerate with what she doing and even want to wack her!!!I already come to the end of my patience!I want chase her out from this house!!!But,i'm chicken-hearted^^,so haven't take any action yet...haha......

爱情何物？

2009-11-04T06:03:00.000-08:00

人生是由几种元素组合而成，少不了亲情，友情和爱情。而最模糊的非爱情莫属。有些人一生中谈了无数次的爱情，有则一生中就只有那么一段。那是不是经历越多爱情就代表更懂得爱，更会体会爱情呢?我个人对爱情的经验不多,但仍然存有一些看法。爱情的出现非常简单，只要两情相悦便能产生感情进而升华变成爱情。爱情可以很纯朴简单亦能复杂难懂。简单是因为只要双方都以真心的爱对方，彼此都会感到被呵护和幸福。复杂的是，即使相爱也并不代表能相处，如果不能相处，爱能持久吗？打个比方说，我爱她或他是因为对他或她又感觉，但我不喜欢她或他的某些习惯，那就很难相处，相处得辛苦，爱是不是就很难持续呢？

除此之外，即使大家都相爱，都能好好相处，人的欲望又开始做祟，开始认为只得到一个人的爱不够，便开始一脚搭两船。或许劈腿的人都回挣扎一阵子，但最终还是抱着船到桥头自然直的心态在有恋情的情况下，开始了另一段恋情。最后得来的就是不欢而散又结束了一段本应美满的恋爱。可能我看戏看太多了，哈哈!把爱说的那么可怕，虽然如此，我还是对爱有憧憬，也希望爱情的出现，毕竟一个人寂寞难耐，有个伴因该不错吧！那就拜托月老咯^^

Failure

2009-11-03T00:14:00.000-08:00

Life come up with many kinds of obstacles which make someone more determine.We need to learn from the failure and attain success.However,i was the only people defeated by failure instead of becomes more persistent.I afraid to face challenges or scare to accept the fact that i had fail to do something.Today was the good example,i got back my english paper and i did it badly,i understand that make an effort on it can improve my english,but why i can't believe my own ability and tell myself i can make it?I just felt sad and my mind keep telling myself that although i strive hard for it,i can't get good result at the end.I'm lack of confidence or evading the problem?Perhaps i expect too much of myself without think deeply over my ability.Conscequently,i set a goal which is not attainable causing me can't accomplish it and even worst is it make me sad for long time.I try not to pessimistic,yet negative thinking still arise in my mind.

Poor in english might seems small problems to other people,but it make me depress.It is true,i'm not kidding,it make me fell into a state of melancholy.I was dejected to learn that i had did badly the english test.It confuse me;i not sure what i'm doing now wether correct or not,am i making a wrong decision to do study this course?Hopefully not,i have no choice anymore,this was my only choice. Anyway,hope God bless me,ensure i can finish the course and make sure i'm going through the right path.Eventhough i struggle in deciding which subject i should take in order to bring my talent into full play,wish someone will lead me to the bright future^^

Miss you guys so much~

2009-11-01T06:35:00.000-08:00

you two old already,although put your head on the model,you two still look old,accept the fact la^^

wa~~3 pretty girls sit on sofa

haiz~girls out of control!!!

force me take picture for them,so bad!

which 1 better o? ugly lo

左拥右抱，艳福不浅。兄弟们

'fi wu fit' 靓女在身旁。

Wuhuuu~finally have time to back kuantan,my lovely hometown which well-known for its salted fish.So happy that my friends sacrifice their time to hang out with me(they will have test tomorrow).We high tea at new opened old town.We talk a lot and the topic we chat most is about my hairstyle.They said my hair like helmet,and wonder why i will accept this hair style because it make me look nerdy.I won't forget this gathering because we already didn't keep in touch for long time and all busy with study.This was the precious chance for us to keep our relationship close.And thanks to pei san, li yun, yee lin because accompany to buy formal shirt for my presentation.

觉悟

2009-10-24T07:58:00.000-07:00

‘ 宫心计’有云，存好心，说好话，行善事。那天，即使功课缠身，我还是帮朋友到残障人士之家做访问，做些好事。我的工作就是把以翻译好的问卷读出来，并记录残障人士的回答。我们大约花了40分钟到达目的地，还没踏进门前时，我不知道为何我的心跳加速，而且还非常紧张，可能是第一次近距离接触产障人士吧！刚开始我还蛮怕的，因为那里的气氛对我来说很陌生，在那里的人都坐着轮椅，看见我们时都露出了笑容，而我也不知道为什么当时我只能尴尬的笑而不是笑由心生。或许我看见他们，心里有些心酸，心想为何他们会有此遭遇？大概讲述我们的来意后，访问便开始了。

我问的第一个人31岁，他告诉我他坐椅已有17年了，是14岁开始用轮椅，14岁前都在地上爬走。身体有障碍的原因是4岁时动手术造成的。问卷中有问说他们觉得自己遇到难题或要达到目标，有没有觉得只要自己尽力就能做到，他的回答是3（还好）。另一题就问你对自己满意吗？他答4（蛮满意）对自己的性生活满意吗？他答4（蛮满意）你觉得朋友给予的支持能让你满意吗？3（还好）你觉得自己的行动方便吗？3（还好）于近期一个月为标准，有感到沮丧或低落吗？3（偶尔）。总的来说，他的生活不是我想象中的悲。我相信每个人都会认为残障人士的生活会较艰难，辛苦，不顺利，还会为他们感到伤心。这都没错，因为大家都有颗怜悯之心，但现在是时候改变思想了，他们其实并不悲惨！与他一对一访问，与他眼神交流，我感觉到他的亲切和真诚的笑容，我相信他给我的答案大部分都是他的真实感觉而不是虚构的。他的答案都梃正面，或许他有身体的限制，不能和我们一样能蹦蹦跳跳，随心所欲四处走动，但他们依然有颗健全的心灵，让他们坚强的面对人生，走出黑暗，不再感到自卑。

有时候我看见别人成绩比较亮眼，表现出众，就感到有点伤心因为技不如人。有时却会因为对自己外表不满而感到烦恼，相比之下，即使有着健全的身躯，但没有正面的思想，最终活得也不比他们快乐，反而更应该感到惭愧和自我反省!他们有外在的限制，局限他们能做的事情，剥削他们的能力，可是他们总会努力的付出努力，希望自己能做更多事情，也会时常感到满足因为自己仅有的一双手（双足无法活动）又多做了一件事。可是我们不会珍惜，不会珍惜并好好利用我们的身躯做出贡献，成天只会执着于一些小事而不快乐。我们也更应该满足，要领悟每个人自有自己优越之处之道，该做的是启发自己的思维，发觉自己的潜能和为自己的能力感到满足而不是一定要有越过他人，因为人比人很伤身伤神。

以上纯属本人愚见

（没有照片因不方便在那拍照）

挣扎！糟糕！心烦！

2009-10-22T05:43:00.000-07:00

从小到大都没什么志愿，现在都已18岁了，我应该设定目标了吧！可悲的是目标模糊又真能找到动力呢？谁能告诉我我的天份是什么呢？我适合往哪个方面发展？为什么我自己的前程如此迷茫？我喜欢主持，可是我能自私的选择这条路吗？我喜欢演戏，我有这个本事吗？爸爸妈妈会赞同和认同吗？我几时才回勇敢地踏出一步，往自己喜欢的方向迈进呢？这些问题想了都觉得烦，烦,烦!大家都轻易地说喜欢什么，自己对什么有兴趣就去读吧！说得如此轻松豪迈，可是到头来如果别人选择的路和自己为别人设下的路不相同时，总是不能轻松豪迈的接受呢？到底这个世界上是不是只有我有这种感觉？为什么别人能如此确定自己该走的方向，我却想迷途的羔羊，更糟的是我还没找到牧羊人，为我解开迷惑，开个康庄大道给我走啊！

2/10/2009

2009-10-22T03:34:00.000-07:00

united malaysia,3 main races gather!

wow,tasty chocolate cake~

Jan and Tani busy in cutting cake.

''God bless us!''

good smiling face^^

Wuhu...!!!Finally i 18 already,but the feeling is a bit complicated,i should be happy or sad for the fact that I'm 1 year older now?By the way,thanks a lot to my friends who celebrate with me,i thought no one will celebrate with me because all of my friends not in KL.The night before my birthday,it was quite pity,i have to rush the IT assignment which i hate very much and need to complete it in the stuffy room.That was a lonely night to me,i really can feel the loneliness and the tears almost drop down from my eyes.However,about 12am my phone keep ringing,i don't care about it disturbing the silent of night, because it bring warmth and happiness to me,all of the calls were made by my buddies.And I'm glad that all my best friends still remember me although we didn't contact each other for long time.Thanks to all of you!

More surprising thing happen to me on my birthday,i really can't believe that my college friends bring me to Madam Kwan and celebrate with me.They just know me for few weeks and they celebrate with me,i really really happy.Old friends not with me,fortunately new friends accompany me.^^

1st week at college

2009-09-06T08:54:00.000-07:00

During my secondary school time,i thought college life=easy life,but actually it is wrong for me.Erm.......this simply because my English is damn poor.My English grammer is worst and you cant imagine how worst it is.Not lying you,i got 13 out of 60 marks for my english quiz,it drive me crazy.Till that moment,i realize i study english since i was 4 years old in kindergarden till form5 actually just for nothing.I really care about the super low scoring,it make me moody and depressed for whole day.So what can i do to improve my english???Wait my lecturer save me?!!hope she can help me.But...after some friends consolation and advice,i feel much better.And i am very happy after i heard xin yi(a friend not very close but i think we will closer in the future) said she want give me her english notes.i hope the notes can improve my english.^^

Lets talk about something happy,i have a very young and pretty study skill lecturer called Selena Ong,she is fun and smile all the time,and all my classmates like her very much for sure haha!beside that,i got a young finite math teacher with serious face,friendly malay english teacher and 3different lecturers for computering principles.I feel more likes tuition than going to school because all classes just take 1.30 hours.yea,i forget moral studies,i not attend the class yet,hope it is interesting for me.And we have to manage timetable ourselve,you will panic when you see the group list and time due to too many groups and it looks complicated.So,i just simply click on the groups,luckily all the teacher i have met in groups are kind haha.

For the 1st week,lecturer teach nothing,just tell us roughly about the course,mode of assessment and how to get the lecture materials from net.in the class,i meet many international school from korea,africa,china,iran and.....i dont have many friends but i think it will getting many and many in future.

Now,is the turn to talk about my room.i rent a room about rm520 including electric and water fees.The room is old and small,toilet is dirty and smelly.it is a poor condition for me but i still can survive becuase i stay Ns before.Thanks to NS because make me tougher haha!Erm,my house near to school,it takes 5 to 10 minute to walk to school.I walk to school everyday,it is hot but i have no choice.My housemates all elder then me,5girls and 1 boy,so add up me,7 peoples stay in a old house.

OK,it is all about my first week college life,it is not easy as i think but fortunately i able to go through it.And thanks to friends who care about me,asking me how i am especially wen shin pei san and my parent.i feel warmth when they call me.wish my parents wont worry me,believe me that i can handle all the things!hehe if i cant do it,it is still ok,i will find my brother Ah Hei,he try hard to fetch me all the time for meal....haha thanks yea Ah hei ....lastly i miss my sister,mother,''dua go'',''be go'',dua bek'' who help me a lots in buying things like fan,water heater....i love you all~

一天的临时演员（kelefe)

2009-07-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

director,before is an actor黄志强

main character 林一心

main character(the a long daughter,botak girl in 老师嫁老大）

main character 温立铭

last tuesday,i felt boring so decided to go Summit USJ and be a kelefe.i woke up at 6 morning and prepared all the thing(2set of cloths,the staff told me on the previous week) with excitation.i went with my brother's friend,a funny guy and my debate senior hui yun.we took about 1hour to reach the venue.

before i reach there,i taught i will act as a student or pedestrian in the movie,or a waiter but all of my imagination was wrong.

when we stepped in the auditorium in Summit,i saw some workers were busy in setting the background and not even 1 actor at there,luckily we saw the movie director then he called us to have a seat.we were sat at there for 30minutes without doing anything but im stil excited just because it was the first time i saw people setting up all the tools for filming.

after 1hour if not wrong,all the kelefe and actors arrived and all of us was divided to few group.we go for breakfast in group.it was quite funny,we are big enough to have breakfast by own,but at that time we have to follow our group leader(a pretty girl same age with me) and having breakfast together.it was a bit awkward when you eating food with someone u dont know,and i could remember our leader ordered foods for us(Subway burger).this meal considered free because we got four buck although we do nothing yet.

deng deng deng deng....after breakfast we finally got job to do,the director ordered us to act as fans.firstly it sounded interesting BUT actually we just keep yelling like mad.i really regretted that i wasted my time in doing this kind of job.i think you really cant imagine the feeling of keep shouting from morning 8am till night 8pm something AND the recompense is 3meals(breakfast rm4,lunch and dinner just the same,mee hun n chickens) and rm50!!!isn't it worthy???